i hate having crushes on people.
it's so irritating, you meet someone, or even just see someone and you are so infatuated by them it's ridiculous. it's so dumb because you don't even know the person, but you would drop everything just to say hi to them. when i have a crush i don't even act like myself. i act so differently because my body just goes crazy whenever i see or think about them. and i swear they know that i have a crush on them, because they are able to toil with me so badly. they say things to you that get you all excited and then the next time they don't even reply, it's so mean. argh, it's so frustrating i just want to act calm and collected when i'm around him, but for some reason it's like there's some neon sign saying "i like you soo much". i just wish we could be friends, that's all. well, for the moment any how haha.