everybody

everybody get on up and dance
and everybody clap your hands.


currently the song I am listening to whilst trying to go to sleep. I have become to this thing seriously I created this today and this is my fourth entry. I got off the computer and came directly onto here to post a blog about my journey from the computer to bed. well all I did was pretty much have some jelly and water. jelly is razzle rasberry yumyumyum anyword with double zz in it makes me happy.. I have no idea why tbh. which fyi means to be honest haha wild child speak. I think I will watch that movie again tomorrow and then I will watch the holiday. Jude law is so attractive. tomorrow I also have to write all of the Christmas cards, which is new because we never give out Christmas cards. dad is making me as I have spare time and also he claims I have the neatest writing pfft.

an issue I'm having at the moment is with some people from school. I mean it's like I'm there second thought.. or not even their thought at all, more like someone has told them to think about me. kind of like today someone was meeting up with someone I had already discussed our change of friendship today and then today when they clearly would have been together I get some spontaneous message fro
the person I don't even talk to anymore. I bet you any money she won't speak to me again before it's too late. people annoy me I was meant to do something with a friend tomorrow but no they claim not to know what day it is and there were no plans organized so I'm meant to bloody organize everything? you've got to be tricking. so these things annoy me then I get angsty and I'm made to look mean because I pretty much shut them out but ohwell. anyway I'm actually tired now so I'm gonna go to sleep now. I wish I could record my dreams that would he fun. harry potter deals.

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love

L is for the way you look at m

O is for the only one I see

V is very, very extraordinary

E is even more than anyone that you adore and

Love is all that I can give to you

Love is more than just a game for two

Two in love can make it

Take my heart and please don't break it

Love was made for me and you

x 2

so for some reason i started singing this song today, it was totally bizarre.

i think it was because i was watching wild child with natasha richardson (rip) in it and then it made me think about her in parent trap (the one with lindsay lohan) and i kind of like that movie and the song is played in it.

but then again i didn't want to be singing this song/ have it stuck in my head all day because love reminds me of someone. and that someone in particular makes me very upset lately.

like okay i can be a very emotional person at times especially at night because im usually the only one up and its dark etc. <>

so, we were just chatting one night and we're talking about his social life which is totally awesome and actually existent but yeh (p.s. he doesn't live near me) (said he wouldn't have a girlfriend because the people where he is from are not girlfriend types [sluttly]) and then i was having a whinge about how i never do anything because im always working and other reasons and then he promised me he would always be here for me. you probably don't understand how much this meant to me. we would also speak about how we're both going to schoolies at the same time and we should see eachother. anyway months and months and months had passed and things had been changing he got a girlfriend and we never spoke much anymore, especially because he was on the social networking site now. this made me sad. it also made me feel like whenever i spoke to him i would be annoying him, which i probably was. you know the sort of thing how you're always the one to say hello <>

well i felt crap because i thought he was the most incredible thing ever, and we just had this good friendship. ever since he's joined this social networking site, which has i.m incorporated he never comes on msn anymore, like actually never. i wait up so late and let me tell you its a complete waste of time. so yeah one night i come home from an actual good time at work which is surprising and he is online on the site, so i say hello first once again and get some shit halfarsed type of conversation which is only fuelled because i told him i needed to talk to him about schoolies. anyway so we're talking and my mood just keeps changing until im very upset. this is also because he doesn't reply until like over an hour, no exaggeration. and then dad starts being annoying saying he'll turn the computer off. so i go to bed and talk to him through the net on my phone. and he just wont talk to me anymore and im falling asleep. so i tell him to delete me, why? because i am an absolute dickhead! but i suppose i thought if he wasnt there it would be like he didn't exist at all, him and all the memories and thoughts would disappear. he'd done it so many times before. so the next day im occupied and then in the evening i check and he actually deleted me. i mean come on why would you do that? i couldn't believe he ACTUALLY DELETED ME, i was so crushed! i wanted desperately to die in a hole.

so now i have told all of you, which will be noone. and even if there is someone i have wasted your time and im very sorry.

p.s. i went to post this but all of this stuff appeared and then i deleted some and so a huge chunk is missing and i cannot be arsed to re-type so meh, apologies once again.

it is so late and im just making myself sad again, i really need to move on and stop being such a loser. ohwell once this stupid dog stops barking i shall be asleep.

p.p.s i love blogging because you can type anything at all and don't have a care in the world whilst doing, and you don't care who reads it. i pretty much know im talking to myself. its freeeaaaking fantastic!!

goodnight
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New Hair Style

well hey there ;)

this is just so cait can see how im wearing my hair now.

it's just middle part sort of thing with a messy bun

it is MEH, seeming as i got my hair cut the other day

i just wanted the front part trimmed because my hair was concave

and so the hair dresser trimmed it and it was nice blunt and thick, just how i like it

but because the dumb hair dresser before put some nasty layer in the back of it

the new cut looked ridiculous so she asked if it w

as alright to put SOME in the front

i checked with mum and was like okay just a few so there she was hacking away at my hair

and now its thin and gross, i pretty much cri

ed. so there for because i cant wear my hair out because i look like a pageboy i need to tie my hair back and i want to grow my fringe out... just for shits and giggles i suppose.

the end

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queen of the wild things

hi, im sweet pii

queen of the wild things.

wild things being:

ashleigh, brie, marcela, monique and tara,

we're just a group of friends.

the name came from the movie 'where the wild things are' and started when the girls slept over my house and we went to see the movie. well minus marcela.

we each have our individual colours mine is red.

brie's is purple

marcela's is blue

monique's is pink / green because of her love interest

tara's is yellow

and well to be honest i don't quite know what ashleigh's is,

tara and i were thinking it could be orange because they are the main colours. for example when we were looking at markers the other day there were all of our colours + orange or black so..

she doesn't have one because she sort of joined us late, you see she was part wild, part not, but now she is considered a wild thing.

in fact i might just ask her now...

one moment please (:

well i told her the options and she said definitely not orange so she chose black, but black is not a colour its a shade. so now i will try and bargain with monique for her to forfeit one of her colours.

you see, the reason wild things need to have their own colours is so we can make MAX playsuits and be true wild things. For the playsuit to be individual they are to be in our colours. do you understand? our colours represent who we are.

i suppose ashleigh could have black or maybe even white.

seeming as brie gave us bracelets for christmas, you know the tree of life type ones.

we got our colours although tara got blue for some reason :S and because ashleigh didn't have a colour she got the multi-coloured one which would kind of work i suppose if she was to have black or white.

anyway i need to speak to monique, please excuse me for a moment again.

...

well monique just said ashleigh can use pink so, i'm not sure.

we'll see how it goes, i say ashleigh can use poo brown haha, that's what she gets for calling her queen lame.

so to tie in with the wild thing theme, when they all came to my fort we watched 'wild child' the movie starring emma roberts (julia roberts niece) , natasha richardson (rest in peace), kimberley nixon (so pretty) and alex pettyfer (the most handsome boy ever, well at least his character is).

this is actually my favourite movie at the moment. it starts off all american with the whole malibu thing going on a.k.a plastic shit and her bff is SO ugly. but anyway then when she goes to england and makes friends with them its so cute. and freddie kingsley... yuuuuum!

well yeah i like how she makes friends with them and then they go back to her place for a holiday and such and how she becomes an abbey mount girl, who remain friends for life. at the end of the movie there is kind of like a scrapbook thing going on and i think it's incredible. i guess what i'm trying to say is i want to remain wild things forever and to embark on this journey i as queen have decided to scrapbook it, so starting with year 12 its going to be like our ending of school and the beginning of our wild thing journey.

it will be very interesting to see how things play out, a lot of us still having wild growing to go and we'll change and move on... or move together.

in the end i know we'll still have a bit of wild things left in us, which i hope we'll be able to hold on to.

for the moment i am just going to enjoy being wild as ever.

and just remember

from your queen,

wild things i love you.

(: